this morning at 10:00 the Niece came knocking on my door, telling me to wake up. at which point Momdukes asked me if i took my nephew to rehab. (he has some pot-smoking and drinking issues. he's sixteen. i find this disturbing.) i hadn't, because i either didn't set my alarm or i never heard it go off. so i made my nephew late to rehab. and why? because sometime around midnight, when my whole body hurt and i couldn't breathe and i couldn't sleep, i went rummaging through the medicine cabinet. i took three advils and a spoonful of codeine cough syrup that was leftover from someone else. it worked. i made my nephew late for rehab because i took medication that wasn't mine and for a purpose for which it wasn't intended. i am a pitiful excuse for a responsible adult.

other ways in which i suck:
*i've had this cavity in my front tooth since forever. since i have no dental insurance and i'm horrifically scared of dentists, i've been putting it off. and now my front tooth is chipped from grinding my teeth, so it's going to cost me even more to pay for the work.
*i haven't read any of my art history reading assignments.
*i missed two out of four classes yesterday, because i didn't sleep at all the night before and i was running at a speed more commonly attributed to molasses in winter. i only made it to one of them because it was held online.
*i'm spending way too much money on ebay
*my villanelle that i had to write for class absolutely sucked, to the point that i refuse to show it to anyone. i'm completely scrapping it and starting over.

yeah, i suck.

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