man, i hope i don't get shit for this. i don't need it. but i just went to bitchfest, and spent some time hanging around in the forums. i'm not linking to it, because i'm not AT ALL interested in a flame war, or in supporting any other diarists against the Big Bad Messageboard, or what have you. or in promoting that site, either. because in all honesty? the only thing in my head is "wow, these people are mean!" and not really mean in a witty way, or mean in a funny way. just mean. it's disappointing to me, since i tend to live in this dream where everything is sweetness and rainbows and unity and the internet is a glorious tool to connect us all lalala. so it makes me a little sad when i realize that there are places out there that are devoted solely to the less pleasant aspects of human nature. the ones that i think we're all supposed to be trying to overcome? is it worth devoting an entire website to the low and angry impulses of human nature? maybe it's meant to be a place in which to contain them, but really what i'm seeing is a place to glorify and wallow in nastiness. not evil (because you know, evil is kind of attractive sometimes, in a dangerous way), but nastiness, which is far more mediocre and less entertaining. and it's disappointing to see people on there that i used to really enjoy talking with; it's not an aspect of them that i'm particularly thrilled about, really, and it makes me sad to realize that i may have been mistaken about someone.

but enough about bitchfest. because while it makes me sad to see that it exists, it does not change the course of my daily life. which is thoroughly consumed with the concept of shakespeare and scapegoats, my 10-page research paper that's due in three days. basically, i will not be sleeping for the next three days. and in making christmas gifts, which i will not divulge the plans for, because some of you might be getting them.

whee, off to my research paper.

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