but i just discovered that the pixies are having a reunion tour. the pixies. the best band in the entire universe is going to be touring together again. i'm pretty sure that the world is indeed going to end.
that said, i now know what i will be saving my hard-earned substitute teacher cash for--tickets to see the pixies at some undisclosed venue, at some undisclosed time. goddamn this whole shrouded-in-mystery thing. but really, what else can you expect from black francis?
in other news, i finish up work this thursday. which gives me three days left, if you count today (which i do, since it's only 8 in the morning. damn this whole excess energy thing, i could have slept in today). it's a weird blend of relief, sadness, and surrealism. i've spent the last two years showing up virtually every day, taking work home, thinking about work, talking about work. having virtually no social life because of working such weird hours. and now, poof! no more job! it's weird. i won't say that part of me isn't immensely relieved. preschool is hard. it's having to be on and full of energy for eight hours every day. it's having to be a constant source of fun and entertainment, and at the same time to be a force for good and a practitioner of positive discipline. when sometimes all you really want is to tell the little brats to shut the hell up and go away because you didn't have nearly enough sleep last night and you really don't care who was playing with that first or who called whom a poopyhead. sometimes it makes you wish for a desk job.
of course, then one of them looks over at me and says, "are you going to miss me? why do you have to go away?" and the tears just start welling up behind my eyes and i want to hug them and promise that i'll never, ever leave. which of course is impractical. people move on and grow up and have to take chances. even these little ones will only really be there for a few years and then move on themselves. but damn, do i get attached to them. i'm gonna be bawling like a giant baby when i walk out of that room on thursday night.
and thanks for the full loan vibes, everybody--the amount covers the whole tuition, and almost all the fees! not enough to make me a lady of leisure, but enough to make me a full-time student, so woohoo! checking the course catalog as i type this--so many choices.
like a kid in a candy store.
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