the
i have discovered how far out of the loop i am. friends are coming home, and i have no idea. i got stood up by my little brother last night. i'm turning 25 in two weeks, and i have no idea whether anyone would show up if i threw a party. or even, really, who to invite.
we got a prank call last night...some kid telling my mom that the government was watching her, and to check her car for cameras. since he had no idea what kind of car it was, i won't worry. had he said "the white cavalier" i might have believed him. but i must confess, there was a moment when my stomach dropped right out. because hell, it's not like i'm a "model american," right? the green party sends stuff to my house, i visit sites like unamerican.com, i am, in short, a radical, and not the sort that commandant ashcroft would be interested in sitting next to at a dinner party. and considering all the other people the new mccarthyism has hit, you really do never know. all i have to say is this--bring it on, gentlemen. let the men in black show up at my front door tomorrow if it makes them feel better. and since they haven't, i have to wonder: what am i doing wrong?
"america, i've given you all, and now i'm nothing"
it occurs to me that in all this rabid swarming americanism, nobody's thought to bring back allen ginsberg. i suppose it'd be people like me who bring him around, and we're not really known for being "patriotic."
but truly. to drop the facetious tone for a minute. at one point, near the beginning, i honestly thought W. was doing a decent job, by not bombing immediately, by talking about investigating all possible avenues. i recant all such assertions. because now, whatever else it is to the people in this country, to the government September 11 has become the perfect license. to protect interests. to obtain new weaponry and better military spending. to imprison thousands, if not more, innocent immigrants, for indefinite periods of time. to amass power in the hands of paranoid institutions like the FBI, the CIA, john ashcroft (he is the institution at this point, nevermind that he should be in one). to attack countries they think of as unsympathetic. to dress the statue of justice. and ari fleischer, the boyfaced voice of reason, telling everyone it's all ok. really. go back to your normal lives. the world isn't burning, lives aren't spinning out of control. the water isn't poisoned, the babies are safe. and it scares the hell out of me.
"it occurs to me that i am america. i am talking to myself again." beatpoetgrrl
 |
 |